Wednesday

You know how you start eating "clean" and you cut back on all the junk, and then two days later you step on the scale and actually have to audacity to expect to see a change? Ya, well that's where I am.

Anyway, I shall persevere.

Was the song that goes, "Sunrise...sunset...sunrise...sunset..." from Fiddler on the Roof? It was in my head when I took this picture this morning.

Again, thank you to my neighbor for having his property in my picture. Oh well, that's what you get for building east of me. It was a really lovely day, weather wise. No jacket required, crickets chirping, still tomatoes ripening outside, just really nice.

Who was peeking at me while I was admiring the morning?

Hi Sammy. He comes in, he eats, he hisses at the other cat, he goes back out.

If you read much of my blog, you know that I have been pursuing the answer to my back pain. It's been almost a year now. It hurts most at night (base of spine, hips). I finally saw the rheumatologist who ordered x-rays and took my history. Bottom line(s)- I'm 50 and all that entails, (and I'm thinking, "but I'm only 50"), I'm too sedentary and need to get back into moving a lot more and working on my core, my x-ray shows some degenerative arthritis in my lower back (which sounds scarier than when she translated that into "wear and tear"), and my tailbone (coccyx) is displaced. She asked me again if I had an injury. I can't think of anything recently except falling off my rolling office chair when I tilted too much, but that happened after I was already in pain. Maybe childbirth messed me up a long time ago?? She told me that there wasn't anything we could do about that anyway. So I am on some wicked anti-inflammatories which I am going to trade in for some coated ones from my own doctor so I can digest again without pain (or another prescription for an ulcer!), I'm walking a lot more, and I am still doing physio.

Yes, but I am not healed after the first session, or the second, or the tenth...

I've even tried acupuncture.

But most of the time I feel like this:

I'm not going to let this side line me. I really think if I can lose some of this perimenopausal weight from hell, and strengthen my core, and stretch daily then I can start to feel like the old me (hah! the "old" me... no, maybe the new me).

Something I like to say to myself when I get caught up in a personal pity party is, this too shall pass. Every rough patch I've been through in my life has run its course. No health , emotional, professional, or relationship problem has lasted forever. They have all worked themselves out with varying amounts of effort. I believe I will at one point in the future think to myself, "Remember when I had back pain? "

Now I shall wash more of my tomatoes that are sitting on my kitchen counter, windowsill, in baskets, and freeze them in big ziplock bags. When I make sauce or chili in the winter I can just take a few out to thaw and mix them in! TTFN! (Tigger quote)