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Friday, 2 March 2018

Follow up to History

It took a ridiculous amount of time, but results finally came back saying there was no evidence of a parasitic infection. However, I am still off work dealing with D. I have finished a one week course of an antibiotic called Flagyl (not a fun medicine to endure either) which a doctor put me on, in case it was a parasite. The head space that I'm in  is pretty difficult because way back when... there were tests and so forth that never caught the entomoeba histolicia (probably spelling that wrong) until it was detected through a second colonoscopy two months of hospitalization later.

Obviously, I am very wary of these test results. The coincidence is too great that we were in Mexico and went off resort (and ate in a jungle and used incredibly questionable washroom facilities) and one month later I developed this.

In Ontario, some people have doctors who they can get in to see within a day or two, and some don't. I'm one of the ones who don't. It will not be until Monday (3 days from now) that I actually get to speak with my own doctor. Up until now I have been dealing with the emergency department.

So... I'm slowly going bonkers sitting on my couch and realizing that day time t.v. is a fate worse than hell and not even sure what I should be feeding myself, and just trying to drink enough fluids, and not let my mind go to very bad places. My husband is an incredible support and keeps telling me that everything will be fine in the end.

I have to remind myself that I am an otherwise healthy vibrant woman who hasn't had problems prior to this and I am in control of what people do to me, and what drugs I will choose to take or not, and how I choose to pursue this (as opposed to when I was in my twenties and lying in a hospital bed unable to even understand what was happening to me). I also realize that it could always be worse, and some bloggers have shared their own personal health issues. I know that this is relatively small on the "life threatening" scale and there are others going through far worse. My husband has helped me realize that it is so much more difficult to me because I'm carrying with me the mental baggage of my previous circumstances. And so, I read your blogs daily, don't always comment, but do always read. It is nice to be distracted by others' lives, and senses of humour, and book reviews, and funny pet stories. I'm posting this as a release, a therapy, just because I work through things by writing... Your previous comments on "History" were so appreciated.  Back I go to watching yet another home renovation programme...

23 comments:

  1. Jenn, Oh how I wish I could give you a hug. Bless your heart, you must truly be in torment. It's our minds working on us most times. I too worry about our health care. Praying you find someone who will give you the proper diagnosis. Do not stop looking for answers. Putting your story out on your blog may reach someone who has been thru this. Our blog families can help. Thankful you are otherwise a healthy woman. You will be in my prayers and thoughts. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  2. Jenn, I have some empathy with you. When you've always been able to do things and then you can't and you aren't quite sure what is really wrong, well -- it gets overwhelming and depressing. I actually went to a counselor for a bit to get my brain around things. You are so fortunate to have good support in your husband and a wise mind to continue looking for answers. I send all the best prayers and wishes in the world that you find the right diagnosis and soon so you can get back to the joy part of being you.

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  3. You've got the right mindset to get through this, and great support from your family. Hoping you feel great relief soon and can move on from this experience. Do you have netflix? Daytime TV is miserable. we've been watching Grace & Frankie and find it hilarious.

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  4. Nothing is as scary as the unknown. Wish I had some piece of wisdom to share that would relieve the pressure. Hang in there.

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  5. Hang on in there. It will be good to talk to your own doctor who you know and trust - and it shouldn't be long now before you can do that.

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  6. This has been a rough time for you, and I hope you are getting the best treatment, and will soon be all well.

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  7. Hoping for the best outcome for you. I understand what you went through in your 20's must be driving you crazy. Keep pushing for more information.

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  8. It must be hard for you to trust doctors after what happened before. I hope your doctor manages to reassure you and that you start to feel better very soon.

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  9. Think positive at all times Jenn xxx

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  10. Thank you everyone for your comments. Honestly, I don't know a single one of you, but it feels like having girlfriend's popping in with happy thoughts and good wishes and it really does help. -Jenn

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  11. A daughter who's spent a year dealing with a tough medical issue said repeatedly, "Someday we'll laugh at this". We're up to chuckling and could be laughing in a month or two.

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  12. Wishing you a speedy recovery. Take care!

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  13. Time usually zips right by but in these cases it drags, doesn't it? I wish I could speed up the clock for you. Hang in there and try to keep busy with other things. Reading blogs is great for wasting lots of time! LOL Wishing you well!

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  14. Thanks, Joanne, Chris and Martha. It all helps. Joanne, my favourite phrase for others has always been "this too shall pass" because that really has been the truth all these years. I need to remind myself of this.

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  15. It really is true that when you don't have your health, very little else matters. You're not alone is battling the demons in your mind regarding flashbacks to the horrible health situation you had to endure years ago. I think when any of us have gone through such an onslaught to our health (and very being!), even the littlest twinge of any symptom throws us right back into that black period. Lean heavily on your support system and keep a positive outlook (easier said than done, eh?). This is a different time and place you are in, you're stronger and wiser than the gal in her twenties.

    Sending prayers and hugs from another "friend" you've never met!

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  16. Oh you poor thing, there there, have a cup of tea. That would be advice from my Gran for any aliment. It's a scary time for you, our bodies don't normally behave this way. Gum to Bum diagnosis really never explained or eased my worry. Yeah only so much of Mike Holmes or Bryan Beaulmer anyone can take! Throw those Mexico travel brochures away - now (col). Sending you lots of healing thoughts.

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  17. Sending healing thoughts and hoping you are all better, very soon!

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  18. Dear Jenn, I am so sorry to hear you are still going through H*** with that whatever it is! Lets hope they figure out what it is FOR SURE soon.

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  19. I so understand your frustrations. Hospitals and doctors lead us to believe they are all knowing. Then we look behind the curtain and realize they are throwing darts at a board. I'm sure it will turn out ok. Thanks for sharing. I'm sure you are helping others out there who are in the same boat. Good luck. My thoughts are with you.

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  20. I know what you mean about daytime television - in any country! That is why I have not watched television for over 13 years. Time to turn to books on cd! I do hope that this go-around is less frightening, although the quality of medical care doesn't seem to have improved since your first visit to hell. I am sending you healing thoughts and lots of hugs - this might be a good time to take up knitting... :)

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  21. Hi Jenn :(
    I'm so sorry you're suffering. It's not easy. I can't get an appointment with the family quack here either for usually a month, and I hate the emergency...I'm so glad you have good support from your husband, that is so important. I don't have a tv, but I remember after burning out, I had all those awful talk shows running all the time...or the Weather Network! I hope you get some answers soon!

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  22. I'm sorry to hear this. I hope they figure it out soon, but your jungle food and washroom details...ugh...glad for antibiotics.

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  23. Ack! I had parasites. They were horrible. Horrible.

    What determines if someone is seen sooner than another person?

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